Sunday, March 09, 2014

Bakit?

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay, 'di mo alam ang gusto mo? Dahil ba minsan ay nadadala ka lamang ng mga panandaliang pakiramdam? O dahil ba patuloy kang umaasa sa isang bagay na alam mong hindi mangyayari?

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay, pakiramdam mo ay may napaka-laki na puwang na hindi mo malaman kung ano? Na dahil dito, hindi mo magawang maging masaya dahil kada bukas mo sa isang pintuan ay nababawasan ng kabiguan ang kagalakang naka-salubong?

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay, parang walang kasiguraduhan ang nangyayari sayo? Na kahit anong pilit mo tanawin ang maari mong marating, bigla bigla na lamang lumalalabo ang paningin mo o minsan pa'y napapa-pikit ka nalang bigla.

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay ay parang wala lang lahat? Lahat ng nangyare kahit na naging masaya naman ang mga nagdaan. Dahil ba masyado ka lang naging bangkang papel na nagpadala masyado sa agos?

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay ay para kang hangin? Na bigla mo na lamang maiisip na mas mabuti pa ang utot, napapansin.

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay ay hindi mo na alam ang gagawin mo? Na kaunting kaunti na lamang ay malu-luka ka na.

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay ay nagmumukha ka nang ewan, na sa isang punto ay parang nawawalan na ng saysay ang lahat? Dahil ba napaka-madikit iyong pandikit mo at sila ay naka-blutac o masking tape lang?

Bakit ba minsan sa buhay ay kailangan pang mag-drama kung pupwede ka namang laging maging masaya?

Bakit ba?

Thursday, May 02, 2013

I need to sleep

Don't you hate how lack of sleep can make you? I know I do 'cause right now, my life sucks. I can feel my bloodshoot eyes wanting to shut and rest. I thought fun people around you can make you feel differently better, but then it wasn't the way it was. You thought the sunny day would make you more alive, but then there went the bad weather. Seriously, these gray clouds are total turn offs. Then you'll wish that tomorrow would be better, but then reality quickly slapped you hard that it won't. It just won't.

I need to sleep.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Untitled

There is a place where I wanna be
And that place is where you are
There is something that I have on my mind
And that thing is you
There is something I want to hold
And that thing is your hand
There are two things I wanna see
And those things are your eyes
There is something that I wanna hear
And that thing is your heartbeat as I rest my head upon your chest
Feeling the hug you are giving me

Because you hold me the firmest I wanna dance
To the slow song we can both catch up
Because you hold me the firmest I feel safe trurning around
Because I know I'll land back to you

Dance me to the beat of this waltz
Because every step makes me feel like a princess and you the prince

I think of you, do you think of me too?

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

It's more fun with a friend by your side

Had it ever happened to you that when you saw someone, you both come racing to each other for a hug because you missed each other too much?
Have you ever experienced laying on the grass with someone chit-chatting about stuffs, hopes, dreams, people, stories, experiences, and such?
Have you ever experienced having someone as your penpal when you can talk with each other everyday?
Have you ever not loved prom that much with someone?
Have you ever become crazy in front of a camera doing funny stuffs for a vlog publicly or vice versa with someone?
Have you seen the world because of someone?
Have you had matching shirts and ballers with someone?
Have you been so vain with someone that everywhere you go, or every cool place you both go to, you both wanted to have a picture?
Have you loved so much things because of someone?
Have you laughed so hard with someone just because of something peculiar?
Have you ever lent your babies(your first cameras) with someone?
Have you ever placed code names to people with someone?
Have you ever had someone part of your family that your cousins think that she is already their cousin?
Have you ever ate lomi after a quite terrible prom with someone and your cousins?
Have you ever stayed after school because you still don't want to go home and had impromptu photoshoots beside the road and on the road?
Have you ever tried to take risky photos with someone just because you wanted the thrill?
Have you ever had accidentally awesome pictures aside from those vain vain shots with someone?
Have you ever crashed a graduation with someone and borrowed togas just to have a jumpshot like the one in Highschool Musical?
And finally, have you ever had your jumpshot taken on your own graduation day, celebrating because you finished and that would be the last day you would be wearing your highschool uniforms?
Had it ever happened to you that someone came to you on the first day of school not knowing that you would be close?
Have you ever made a toy store as your playground with someone?
Have you ever rode on a motorcycle with someone and your cousin and laugh to death because with the 3 of you on it, the scooter can barely move?
Have you ever made a song cover with someone and your sister for like an hour or two because most time used is laughing because you can't make it perfect?
Have you sang on your graduation day beside someone and be looking at a copy of the lyrics of your graduation song you needed to memorize?
Have you tried making konchaba with your school photographer (who turned out to be your cousin) to have you be sitting beside with someone who is also willing to be in the name of the wacky shot?
Have you been addicted to the internet and have tons of accounts on different sites because of someone?
Have you tried winning a contest with someone?
Have you ever tried not caring about how your hair looks like for a day or two?
Have you ever tried playing soccer with someone who had an asthma but still felt infinite in every training and every game and still manage to make a vlog?
Have you ever tried being at one cause with someone? Volunteering to help other people and getting hungry for 12 hours just to experience the hardship?
Have you had a cold war with someone because of misunderstandings?
Have you ever been not there for someone when she needed you the most?
Have you ever lost someone who became part of your family?
Have you ever thought that that someone is one of the best people you met who influenced you most out of the world?
Have you ever had someone whom you are proud to call your bestfriend?


Because I did. And I am happy and contented.



Happy 19th/20th Birthday Margarita Dianne Jarales Dayo. Thanks for being that someone in those days. You're the best! That's why today, I myself am declaring this day a Margarita Day! We miss you more than I miss playing soccer!

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Please don't judge

I forgot how fun having friends is. As in yung marami kayo at lahat nagkaka-intindihan ng language. I can't believe I used to say that I can never imagine living in Las Arenas (where lots of Filipino live). Frankly speaking, I'd rather be living in a place where I don't have to greet every person I pretend to know. I don't like misjudgements and I don't want to be judged. I don't want to live a life where I'm afraid to do something just because other people might say this or that. I got contented living in my present address, especially when I get to know a lot more people, of different ages, and of different nationalities. I embraced being a Catholic and I've always loved singing and going to different places (wherever awesome they may take me). I told myself, "why would I live in a place where I have to search for myself again? Search where I belong? And kind of restart." Especially when you are under control of someone until you turn to the right age. I was wrong. It's not really like restart, but go with the flow as they say. I am a girl, one of the people who still do not know where I'm exactly heading, but somehow I know I can see my future.

Okay, I've said too much. All I want to say is that I enjoy being with the barkada of my cousins. Starting on the first day of Nice's cottillion practice. As I've said, people can be very judgemental. Most often, when they see the bad side of one person, all they will ever think is that that who they totally are. I know I am somewhat like that too at times, but as much as possible, I try not to be. It's bad. There might be some things where we can't take off some people like those bad habits (admit it, we all have), but when you look on the bright side and be optimist-prime (haha. I know that's corny), you can see that these kids are a bunch of talented human-beings. I know they're just hidden and shy, but boost them and they might even be on the list of the successful people in the world. If not, at least they will have something where they know they are contented and proud of.

We're just a bunch of young kids, at heart and in mind, still developing to be someone you'd be proud of. Everyone wants to enjoy the life they deserve, right?

Note. I am not taking sides. I am not an angel. I think I just have the roots of a wallflower. I think I see things not everyone sees and this blog is not enough to tell them all. So please don't judge.


Seriously, this blog is a crap. I don't exactly know what am I trying to point out here. Basta, I enjoy the barkada of my cousins kahit na diko pa sila ganon kakilala. Who doesn't like a good laugh, right? I'll try to have a follow up blog soon! :-) Yung mas maayos. haha




Sunday, March 10, 2013

there's always something good in everything and everyone

One of the things I could never think is happening to me now is to have friends, well to be more special, international friends. I can't really tell they're my real friends, but at least I can consider them to be one of the best people I've met in my life. Few by few, they get to know me, and them as well to me. Seriously, this is kind of like a very typical post, but I can never end my expression of gratitude of meeting awesome people. You see, not everything seem to be that bad at all. Sometimes, those things you think is the worst to happen for the rest of your life will actually turn out of the best.

To these people, you are angles brought from heaven, thank you for welcoming me and my sister whole-heartedly and making me be useful in every way possible. Thank you for the kind presence that I felt like I found a new family; another group of people who will always make me feel that my life feel is more worthy. Thank you for trying your very best to understand us. Let's put it this way, when I love those people around me, I'm more eager to make more fun things which is to be stored in our memory boxes. I know you guys won't be able to read these words right now, maybe some day. Hugs and besos for everyone!

Aupa al grupo de los navegantes, especially los monitores y nuestro cura parroquo. Tambien, el coro del Inmaculada Concepcion de Santurtzi. Bakit ako nag espaƱol? Haha

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Pictures & Text

These are the few things which were kinda like on my mind yesterday, which made me do these edits...
So yeah.

I really am having a hard time remembering things right now, which always leads me to trouble. And I really wish it'll be one of the things which will be less of my worries. At first, I thought of wanting to be an elephant, but I don't want to have a trunk on my face and be really big (literally). hehe. Idol ko si Horton. :)


Maroon 5's one of the best song: She will be loved... Will she be?